I have changed my username, and I chose the option to have no connection between this journal name and the last. To be honest, I hope it makes my haters crazy. I don't think I'm hiding as much as I'm relocating. There will be some [one, really.] who can still find me through mutual friends, but it speaks more of her character than mine should ( Read more... )

It appears that I am on a seemingly endless journey to rid my life of negativity. At this stage in my development as an adult, I have come to reassess my priorities and determine what things are even worth acknowledging ( Read more... )

Contrary to the beliefs of some, I am not an alcoholic. I drink, on average, four times a month and only on the weekends. Furthermore, when I do get drunk, it is only at night. There is no impulse in my brain that says, "It's noon on a Wednesday; lets get drunk." I'm a hard-working bitch, and I deserve to drink at the end of the week. You'll ( Read more... )

Watching Female Trouble at work is the best. While the rest of the house sleeps, I can take a journey through one of the trashiest films ever made. Divine is…well, divine in this movie (and always). I think that it is probably my favorite John Waters’ film. It is definitely making my shift a lot more tolerable ( Read more... )

This has definitely been an interesting year. I've had to endure many hardships just to make it this level of consciousness. Now, I find myself going through many more changes as I learn, all over again, who it is I am ( Read more... )

I am growing closer and closer to some type of normalcy. The anxiety is coming less and less, my thoughts have grown less chaotic, and I feel myself becoming more grounded ( Read more... )

Day 4, Week 3: No cheating. I woke up at 9:45 a.m. and didn't have my first smoke of the day until almost 4 p.m. It is almost 10 p.m. and I've only had one-and-a-half. The anxiety with it is weird. There is some bodily discomfort, but I'm starting not to notice a lot of things now, at least not to the level where it bothers me. I think this is ( Read more... )